Tuesday, February 24, 2009

I am sad

I am sad.

Since this last surgery I have a different kid. He is mean and opinionated and ornery. He is sad so much more.

His muscle tone has increased and he can't walk as well. In fact he would prefer to crawl.

I am sick to my tummy.

I can't stop crying.

Who do I take him to? Where do I go? How do I help him? This didn't happen last time

We have an appointment in the morning for a follow up scan. I have an appointment with his braces guy to see if he can help me get in to on of the rehab docs.

I am frustrated.

I feel VERY alone.

The "others" comments are bothering me

I am sad.

8 comments:

Anita Nap said...

I'm so sorry. I'm sick of "others" comments as well. I'm getting ready to post a big thing on Autism so my whole family can tell me I'm smokin crack and my child has no problems. Yeah, whatever. Try living with him.

I hope you get some kind of answers. I wish there was something I could do.

Lorrie said...

I know the feeling. It's o.k. to be sad. Every day doesn't have to be a happy day. I know...I have three on the spectrum...or whatever you want to call it and so days...it's o.k....to be sad.

tiptoe mama said...

I agree. It's okay to be sad. Even a good thing I think. Even so, I wish I could offer you some comfort. I wish I could show up on your doorstep with an armful of chocolate and chick flicks, and take you away from reality for a while. Right now, I don't have any suggestions for you, but I'll think on it. In the meantime, I'll pray for you. Hang in there, and know that you are loved.

Liz said...

I'm sorry. The rough days are so hard...I hope that you find some peace today. You'll be in my prayers.

Lori said...

ah man. those days stink. I'm so sorry! big loves sent your way.

Melissa said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you! I hope things will get better for you and your family. Let us knwo if there is anything else you need at this difficult time!

Mel said...

Nancy, I'm so sorry. You are one of the strong ones... you will get through this. My thoughts are with you.

Happy in Holland said...

I'm so sorry you are feeling down today. I hope you get some good sleep tonight and feel better about things in the morning. Just remember to take one day at a time and be free to feel what you are feeling. You are dealing with a lot, and you are entitled to "bad days". Hang in there and let us know how it all goes.