Monday, December 22, 2008

Saying a Prayer in my Heart

I said a silent little prayer on the way home from the ENT today because I know I have to be strong for my children. They can't see mom cry. We took our little six month old in today and when they took us into the sound proof booth to test his hearing it was everything I could do not to cry right then. I have been there so many other times with two other children but something about him being so tiny and fragile. When she said his name and he didn't turn his head something inside of me dropped. He has partial hearing loss and fluid in his ears, so we are off to Primary Children's right after the New Year. I have reservations about the anesthetic because he is so young. Out other son went in at nine months but was also a chunk compared to the wee one. They are also going to scope his nose for obstructions. I wonder will this effect his speech? Will he be delayed as our daughter was? Does anyone have any intervention ideas for helping with speech and hearing loss? What milestones should I be looking for? Anyone know where to get Signing Time videos at a reducecd rate?

Why is it not getting easier with each time we go through this? I am glad I know what to expect but why is it I still feel vulnerable as a mommy who loves her little ones SO much?!

Sister's tube is out and her neck is being observed for two weeks before they consider two surgeries on her. I am so grateful for prayer. I know these are HIS children not mine and they are in HIS hands.

6 comments:

Luke and Erin said...

I got our Signing Times on Ebay for almost 1/2. You could also try ksl.com.
Good luck, Merry Christmas

Anita Nap said...

I have all the Signing Time videos. I recommend Baby Signing Time though. Marshall won't watch movies very much anymore. The ADHD is getting worse. Email me. I have an idea for you.

Happy in Holland said...

I'm so sorry to hear that you are having a tough time--but it is to be expected. I think you are only human and a fabulous mom for the way you feel. I know you love your little ones so much, and you'd do anything to help them. I'm sending prayers your way!

Hanni said...

if you have a speech therapist you can ask them if they have any. I had to but me oldest into early intervention and they had some if I needed them. You can also try amazon.com or half.com

tiptoe mama said...

I'm so sorry to hear your news. It's always so hard to find out about one more thing. MK has hearing loss, and hearing aids, but we're so new in that game, that I don't have any tips or advice. I'll just keep praying for you. Hang in there.

Kim said...

I am so sorry to hear about your news, especially this close to christmas. I can tell you that Signing Time is on PBS on Monday st 12:30 so you can record it or TiVo it. Maybe that can help you save a few dollars. Good Luck.