It really bothers me when doctors or therapists don't trust me to not freak out when they tell me things. This last month it has happened a few times. We met a new speech therapist who did his little tests and figured out where JT is in language. He kept saying things like, "I would be crushed to find out my son was so far behind. Are you sure you're okay?" I was just thinking, "This isn't new news, the other therapist told us he was at 12 months, you tell me he's at 10 1/2, it's not that different. He is still my JT."
Maybe I am just not reacting yet. Maybe they are right and I SHOULD be crushed and people SHOULD worry about telling me exactly what is going on because I will break under the pressure...but it doesn't feel like it. Once a month, for a few days, I go nuts. I am mad at everyone else for having "normal" kids with "normal" problems. Those few days I am depressed and only think of myself and JT. Then I figure out how to pull out of it and I only have a smattering of bad days for the rest of the month. Normal? I don't know. But not telling a person that something is wrong with their child is certainly not helpful.