Sunday, October 26, 2008

Primary Program

It's been a long day..don't we all have those? Today was the Primary program in sacrament and to be honest I wasn't too nervous because my two children involved had been reciting their lines over and over at home. My son got up to say his line and put his tie over his face and refused to say the line. He just kept shaking his head no. Everyone thought it was cute and giggled, but something inside of me broke a little. After the song everyone sat down and he stood there next to the front, not moving. One by one his classmates tried to get him to sit down and finally he did, into the arms of his teacher. She rocked him through the rest of the meeting on her lap. Bless that sister. I had tears streaming down by the end of the meeting because it was one of those "my child is different" moments. My daughter did well until the end, she came off the stand sobbing. "I missed you up there" We couldn't get her to calm down so we ended up leaving church instead of giving a talk in Primary. It's the first time we have left early in years. I know the Lord sees our hearts and knows His children. One day at a time.

3 comments:

Anita Nap said...

I've had too many of those "my child is not normal" moments. I had to take him out to the foyer and restrain him today before the opening song! It was bad. He was hitting, scratching, trying to bite, etc. A wonderful woman from another ward offered to restrain him for me. I so appreciated her. She works with Special Needs kids and we worked in Cub Scouts together this summer. She understands what I'm going through. I don't know what his deal is but Marshall has been getting worse and worse over the last few weeks.

Happy in Holland said...

I know exactly how you feel. Those moments break my heart, but people who aren't going through it don't understand the impact it has on you. Mason just got his part for the program today, and our program is in two weeks. I'm worried what he might do for 45 minutes on the stand without mom and dad to keep him busy and controlled. I know people will just laugh and think he is cute, but I will be both proud and a bit sad at the same time. Though Mason doesn't notice he is different, I do, and other kids do, and it makes me worry for his future as a child and as an adult. I just pray that the gap begins to close as he gets older. I have to say how nice it is knowing other moms who have the same feelings that I do. It makes me feel a little less alone in this big big world of "normal" families.

LukErin said...

I have yet to try that, I think I will have a really hard time with it becuase Bree's speech is what has been the most difficult. Those moments when you really remember what your baby is facing. I hurt for her.
P.S. there is NO shame in leaving early... if we weren't in the nursery we would be right there too :)