Recently I had a HUGE influx of readers on my blog. The comments were not ... um nice. But after a day like today I can't help but think how much this sucks.
I love Tyler. I do. I try everything in my power to be the best mom in the entire world and I fail at it. I hate it. I hate that we have to do this. I hate that he has to go through so much. I hate that people think we don't treat Ty "normal." I hate that we have to do things that most people have NEVER even heard of. That getting routine immunizations is not the same as botox every few months. That your busy week doesn't get to consist of painting your house but dragging your kid to every therapy that anyone can think of PLUS some.
I don't get it. I don't get why its not OK that this can suck. Why do I have to be OK with it all the time? Can't I say it sucks.
Today we did casting for new AFO's. SMO's are coming with them and we are doing Titanium afo's but they are not covered by insurance OR Shriners. We have to pay half of them. But the casting part sucks. For real, this kid has been through 7 brain surgeries, countless pokes and prods and he really doesn't want to put on a freaking cast.
My hubby who works ALL the time was suppose to go with us to help hold him down. Yeah. That didn't work out. So here is my 30 pound kiddo, thrashing around, spitting, screaming, gagging kiddo while they put casts on him. Finally they had to get another person to help me hold him down. Yeah. A normal mom so gets to do that.
Seriously... I hate it.