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Thursday, February 26, 2009

I'm feeling guilty and tired.

I'm feeling a little guilty.  I'm new to posting but I have three boys who have various issues.  My 13 year old is a High functioning autistic, my 10 year old is PDD-NOS...better known as ODD with a little (no correction) a lot of ADHD, anxiety and just plain boy thrown in.  My 5 year old is currently not diagnosed and I like it that way.  
The reason I'm feeling guilty is he attended his social skills graduation last night and I didn't have the greatest attitude.  After 10 years of being in ABA, DTT, natural environment, Floortime,...I can't even remember some therapies we've tried...  I left there a bit jaded.  He asked me what he was going to do next to help fix him...and I said, "We're done.  No more therapies, therapist, or going to therapy classes.  No more fighting with insurance, regional centers or anyone else.  I'm just done."

With the candidness of a 13 year old (and he's been speaking since he was 6 1/2) he said..."Don't you mean WE'RE done?"  That's why I feel guilty.  I don't know if he really doesn't need more therapy or I'm just tired of him being in some type of therapy.  I'm tired of people coming to my house, me driving to a clinic, doctor office, center or our last stint...UCLA.  I guess I'm just tired.